I have always believed in God, and would often pray to him

and talk to him as a child, ​​It was my dads responsibility

and my mums to pray for us all, to Lord Jesus and help us understand our bible.

This all got spoiled when my parents divorced, when I was 5 years old,

 my mum stopped going to church and lost her faith and hope in Jesus and

we had no one praying over our house to Jesus and God, heart breaking for all of us.

Lord Jesus likes for us to try and not  divorce as we can read in his teachings in our bible in the book of Matthew 19:8  Lord Jesus will help with your marriage, especially if you have  divorced, he would like to help all involved, as we seek him in prayer about all of this, he loves us and would like us to be with him, in our new  homes he is busy making for us in heaven. Lord Jesus earthly dad Joseph was a carpenter by trade, while with us on earth, I hope he made it to heaven to be with Jesus and his wife and family, I have been praying to Lord Jesus about this

and I ask this to be so in Lord Jesus name Amen.

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My dad did not want to divorce my mum, he was advised to by our family doctor, as my stepmother informed me of a few years before she went to her new home in  heaven. Her husband died quite young in a motorbike accident, when I was about 4 years old,

leaving her with their daughters my stepsister, heartbreaking for all of them, my stepmothers husband was best friends with my dad. My parents all eventually forgave each other, as the years passed, which pleases Lord Jesus. My parents did not know how to read their bible or how to pray to Lord Jesus, to help them with their marriage and children that God blessed them with,

they needed a prayer partner to help them pray to Lord Jesus.

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​ My youngest brother said to me a few days ago, that my Mother said, when my dad had died,

that she was a widow, my brother was cross with her. My mum never was able to let my dad go in her heart after their divorce, I said to my brother that was fine for mum to think like that, that was her hoping and holding onto her faith in Jesus to be with my dad again, that Lord Jesus gave her  heart to believe and hope for. I pray my mum is back in heaven with my dad,

 and my Stepmother is back in heaven with her husband.

 Lord Jesus said,"You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."

as we can read in our bible from the book of John 14:14 

I ask for this to be so in Lord Jesus name  Amen.

Had my mother stiil have been with us when my brother told me this, I would have phoned my mother and prayed this prayer with her to Lord Jesus, all in Lord Jesus hands now Amen.

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When I was about 18 years old, I became exhausted, with all of this and family life

without dad in our home, to help us. My mum suffered with depression

and treatment for it back then was not kind and my mum lost her ability to do her art work, in the way she would have liked to and was unable to cook and manage the home and really wanted to give up, heartbroken.  My younger brother and I were able to spend our summer holidays with my dad, stepmother and my stepsisters, It was heavenly just being with dad and my dads,

Golden Retriever dog, "Sandy."​

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 I did not have my bible with me in hospital and continued to be frightend of God and

everything, I just needed my dad. The nurse in charge was very kind, and I told him 

everything, and I asked him to go and see my mum and bring my cat for me. 

The nurse did not do this, I continued being frightend of God, and I did not know how to pray.

 My vision and speach started going as did my ability to control the movements of my

legs and arms. My mum came to visit me, I tried to talk to her, but she did not stay. ​​

A nurse came from another ward one afternoon, sharing invitations with us, 

to go to a concert for Jesus, I was very pleased to have this, and sat in my room

and called upon Jesus name, that was all I could do, I continued with not being able 

to control my movements, in my legs and arms and was completetly

 exhausted by this and giving up and almost died. At that moment, God helped me, 

I did not realise this though at the time.

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My legs and arms slowly started to relax and my vision improved also

 and I continued to get better. My stepmother came to visit me and said my dad sat

up in bed and called out my name, her last words to me were very precious, before going

home to heaven.The nurse in charge came to see me and apologised for not getting

back to me, with my cat, he had to go on holiday, he was very uspet and

gave me a bag of sweets, I thanked him. My friend let me ride her beautiful horse

when I came out of hospital. I had to ask her to put me on a leading rein,

I was not in a very good way, as I was still having problems with my vision,

 and not strong enough, to ride her horse on my own.

I needed to seek Lord Jesus in prayer in my bible, I did not know how to

and I should have been playing worship songs to God while in hospital, I did not have any.

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​​When I was about 22 years old, all was not going well with my marriage, and I was

continuing being frightened of God. I had my bible with me in this hospital and

a sketch of a foal with me also, that I drew, not from my heart though, from an art book,

that my mum gave me, when I was 12 years old, all about horses. My mums art work was

incredable, she was awarded a schollarship, to go to art school, in her younger years

and had to turn it down to help her mum at home. I was so happy to have this horse book

and still have this sketch book. My first sketch I did, was when I was about 10 years old,

it was a dog and was perfect and looked real, I drew it from my heart and gave it to

my mum and my mum did not aprove of this. It was a gift from God to help me cheer her up,

I did not realise this though at the time and I was never blessed by God,

 to draw from my heart like that again.

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 My eldest sister informed me after my mum had passed away, that mum

would not stop going on about a dog she had as a child, when about 3 or 4 years old, 

and it died in a very tragic way. My mums dad may have bought it for her, It proberbly saved her life. God was trying to help her know it was in heaven, from my sketch for her. My mum was

never able to forgive her mum for leaving her dad, when my mum was about five years old

and never saw him again, he was able to write to her though. I gave the sketch

of the foal to my doctor, helping me with my marriage,

 he said, "All you need is your bible,"  

 

​My marriage ended and I continued with horse riding. 

I had two beautiful horses to ride, from the riding stables in these lessons,

one being privately owned, I did dressage on this and the other horse my favourite, 

I did intermediate cross country on and show jumping, we almost collided at a jump on one occasion, in the indoor menage, in one of my lessons, my horse stopped a few strides before going over the jump. My instructor said one minute you were fine and she turned round to see me rolling over the horses head, my instructor said, she went down so gently on her knees for you. 

I would keep her on a long rein when riding in the beautiful countryside on my own at

the weekends as she suffered a problem with her neck, I would tell her everything, she was sold by the stable and her new owner prepaired her beautifully for me to ride, she wanted to learn as much as she could about horses as was suffering with an incurable illnes, her last words spoken to me were so kind, as I set off in the countryside to ride my favourite horse for the last time.

I was not seeking Lord Jesus in prayer or reading my bible about any off this.

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A few  years later I found a new relationship and was very happy,

 all started to not go well in my relationship and future wedding plans were over, 

I sought to try and find help from my bible, that one of my older sisters gave me as a gift,

when I was 11 years old, and read a page, that I could not understand. I found a church to go to end of 2003 and was helped with understanding my bible and in August 2006, I sought Lord Jesus in prayer for forgivness and help with my children.

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​​Susan and Family

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